So I bought a fear food today.
[TW: Eating disorder, Restricting]
I try not to restrict and limit myself and I am getting better at eating food without worrying about calories. But I admit it is still something I struggle with in my recovery.
My boyfriend is always really supportive of me and encourages me to eat when I am hungry and buy foods I’m craving. With his support today I bought some nice cheese (fear food).
It was anxiety provoking and I was thinking in the back of my mind while I bought it that I didn’t “need it.” But after that initial anxiety, I’m okay and plan to have a little bit of it before dinner tonight.
I plan just to enjoy it.
Which is a huge step forwards in my recovery process!!!
To everyone struggling with this remember:
That is okay to treat yourself, that its okay just to eat something just because you like the way it tastes. That is okay just to enjoy it. That is okay not to feel guilty afterwards.